pernah ada rasa nak bunuh org?

aku ada.
hari ni. because that particular person has made me waste my precious little time just because he forgot abut it.


DAMN!


betapa malu nya.
when a teacher 'mengambil ringan' soal going in and out of classes.


aisshh!

Ini lah sakit mak aku!

selain sakit2 normal org zaman skarang seperti;

kencing manis dan

darah tinggi

my mom has another 'sakit' which was detected about 2-3 years ago when she was referred to Metro Hospital.

since then, she has been a regular patient for metro.

bila dengar dek org kampong, depa kata mak aku ada 'penyakit orang kaya'. kaya lah sgt.

'yg hang dok bwk mak ang p metro tiap2 bulan tu, mak ang sakit apa?'

penyakit yg aku sendiri xtau nak describe!

inilah dia sakitnya!

AGORAPHOBIA

kalau lah!

have u ever think, if u are not who u are now.. what and where would u be?

if i never listened to my teacher to took up teaching after my SPM, i might still searching for a job now since i was first an accounting student.


if ever i am jobless now, i might not be able to be a filial and burden-less daughter to my parents now.

if i never broke up with my ex, today i might not be a single lady who keeps avoiding questions regarding marriage.


if i ever been a boy, i might not be the girl today who grumbles over men's job that i have to do at home. 


if i never did any mistake before, i might not be a better me now!

where got??

 many people expressed their dissatisfactions on me being posted to my hometown..

'gda takpela dok umah. xyah pikir duit sewa rmh. mkn minum smua ditanggung kan??'

my response? at first, i let my mouth zipped!

tp lama2, ada rasa jgk laa..

sapa ckp dok rmh sendiri ngn mak ayh ni sng? mana ada! where got?

now, i have my own career. my own pay. yerp! my parents mmg x sentuh pun what i earned every month.

but as a daughter, 'working daughter'... would u let ur parents pay for everything?? anak apa mcm tu?

rules and regulations are tightly applied when u stay with ur parents:

1. wherever i go, they have to know.. more than other ppl.

2. if i was out somewhere, i have to be at home before 7! later than that? boleh, tp mesti beserta dgn penjelasan dan bukti!

3. beware with whom i'm hanging out because i might be surprise with what they have already knew! (it happened to me)

4. career development might be affected, though just a bit!

in terms of money and expenses, it's just the same. all the bills are on me. yes, no need to pay for house rent. but, 1 thing for sure.. when u stay on ur own, u pay for what u eat. when u stay with ur family, u have no other choice than to pay for it all!

im not grumbling. i'm just telling!

so, next time when u see me or anyone staying with their family.. do not easily put into words what u see but think of what u didn't see instead!